Between a rock and a hard place

Ugh. This is the fifth draft of a post I’m writing. Currently, my situation is changing day by day and with it, the options how to continue with Quazar.

I’ve just come back from my doctor, and he was very worried. He wrote a sickness certificate/ sick leave certificate(?) and prescribed a buttload of meds. I guess he’s right and all; the last few weeks have been a living nightmare.

I don’t even know where to begin. My business is going insolvent, despite me working two to three jobs at times. One of the reasons is a client who took advantage of my company, which is bad enough. I am involved in a dispute with my office’s landlord, as he is dangerously neglecting his contract. A few hours ago, my accountant indicated that my close friend and former business partner may have embezzled money from the company during the time we worked together. I am distraught and anxious, to say the least. I am still hoping that this is some error. But time and time again I’ve been proven wrong whenever I kept my faith in humanity.

Until today I was quite sure I would be able to return to my schedule and continue with Quazar. albeit with a reduced timetable. But getting the accountants news floored me so hard, I am literally feeling nauseous.

I have come to the conclusion, that I will have to put Quazar. on hiatus for now. It’s for the best. Currently my hands are shaking due to stress and anxiety and I tire out extremely fast. Until I haven’t dealt with all the other bullshit that’s going on, I am physically not capable to draw a fucking straight line.

I will finish all open commissions as well as the ones that were discussed and/or paid. Again, I will contact everybody in the next 48 hours to discuss things. If I don’t, please be sure to reach out to me and I will get back to you for sure. I will also update my channels and pages in the next few days accordingly. And if you have any questions, please don’t hesitate to ask.

My comic and ultimately Patreon will also go on a break. This pains me the most. I have struggled with myself, because I don’t want to let Quazar go. Like my Ltd. (and ultimately daytime-job) it means a lot to me and my life as a creator. Which is incidentally also the reason I’m not begging for money here – I want you to support me because you enjoy my art, style and humor, not because I am currently failing so hard at life.

If you want to stay in touch, best way is through my email: hello@quazar.space. I won’t be totally gone; I hope I’ll be able to post a sketch here or an update on how things are going there, until I can eventually return to a regular schedule. Maybe we can see this as a summer break? I dunno.

I really hope that you guys will be still around when I finally am able to return, but I can understand if you are angry or disappointed. I sure am. Things deteriorated so quickly during this month, it is crazy, and I am still trying to understand what hit me.

I hope the dust will settle soon and I will be able to emerge from this whole mess relatively unscathed. Until then my fam, take care y’all, and I hope to return as soon as possible. Q.

Ps: the image to this post is a beautiful golden slow-worm I found basking in the street when walking my dogs (I set it aside after taking this picture).